# Arete
*Arete (ἀρετή) is an ancient Greek concept denoting "excellence" or "virtue" in its highest form, representing the full realization of potential or inherent function in a person or thing*
A couple years ago the most powerful thing on my mind was that I *must* become a great artist.
And that ambition withered away, oddly, as I began to recover and heal and transform post-trauma.
What the hell?
How could healing draw me away from my ambition?
I mediate on this today and realize that my pursuit was for the wrong reasons. I was pursuing excellence in my work only as an antidote to existential loneliness. I did not want to feel like *nothing.*
I don't often feel like *nothing* anymore and have a much healthier relationship with myself. But I did not expect this to erode my desire for greatness.
So today I throw a dart forward into fate and search for other reasons to pursue excellence.
Because, if anything, I'm curious about my potential.
*Arete!*